Farewell 2012, hello 2013

It is nearing the end of 2012 and I am very excited about Christmas.  However last Wednesday I had one of the most surreal days of my life.  I went for an internal scan, not for any particular reason.  I then forgot about it and got a message from the hospital saying I had to go to see them for an apointment.  Now having had a lot appointments and operations at the hospital I was totally freaked out. 

I went to the Hospital and it turned out there is something on my left ovary and they are taking it out.  All signs are so far good, i.e, had a blood test and scan and nothing is showing up.  However, they can't say for definite until they take it out.  Life is weird sometimes it throws you in a different direction to the one you thought you were going in.  On this weird day my Husband and I walked down to the Hospital canteen and there on the front page of the Swindon Advertiser was my face with the caption, "Good news at last!".  The irony is strange, let's hope it is a good omen.  My friend said to me "You are better than an episode of East Enders at the moment,". 

Monday night I crashed my car.  I have no idea how it happened.  I was driving in a straight line with nothing in front of me and then all of a sudden I am driving into a black car and a silver van?  I cannot explain it, did the other driver pull out into me, or did my tyre blow?  It really shakes you up and bought out a flood of emotion.  I am okay now, but there is definitely strange things a foot at the moment.

Merry Christmas everyone and I wish you all a fabulous 2013!

Just a little poem I wrote!

The big C, you won’t defeat me!

The gauntlet had been thrown.

You tried to shatter my home.

Positive attitude would drone.

Here I go into the unkown.

A journey into the stormy sea

Sailing solo just me

Hold tight and weather the storm

I hear you shout “Why me?” across the sea

But no answers are to be found, they have all drowned

In the beginning the mental chatter in my head would never cease.

This bloody Cancer what a beast

Silently you came

But defiantely I will reign

You can go back from where you came.

I know not why you came and life will never be the same

What a funny game

The answers come from within but you can’t find them at the beginning

Wife, Mother, Daughter, work colleague, and friend I am

Here I stand with all the strength in my hands

I command you to leave me be with my family.

I banish you from this land.

I am victorious and the remainder of my life will be glorious.

I will not live in fear because my life is dear

You have given me more strength inside

And I have now turned the tide

The experience was not all bad and none of this makes me sad

I won the battle and the sea is now calm

Time to steer in a different direction

You stripped me back to who I am

My inner core I now adore

No more turmoil to be had, inner peace is to be had.

Life is a journey you have to sail

Don’t let the big C derail

Good and bad shape who you are

Let your worries out along with the tide, ride the big waves, and bask in the sunshine.

It is now my time to shine.

Face book friend or foe?

I am not on face book and I have had a lot of stick from some people as I am not on it.  Some people who sadly live their lives through face book, look at me bemused that I am not on it. I can see it is a good thing to keep in touch with people, particularly family that does not live in the same area as you. 

Maybe I am being cynical but I see a lot of people using it to just show off and rub people's noses in it.  I think if you use it in that way you are storing up bad ju ju for yourself.  I have seen people whose relationships have dissolved, they then use it as a weapon to show others how they have moved on quickly and now post regular pictures of themselves with new partners.....nice!  I know Family's that have fallen out with each other over trivial stuff on face book.  If I had a £1 for everytime I have heard someone winging about someone taking them off their friends list, I would be a rich woman.  Face book is not for me and I am probably alone on this one, but I will be staying away from it for now!

Nuissance telephone calls

I am want to thank the guy who stood up to nuissance telephone calls, by taking a persistent company to court and billing them with £10 per minute.  When I am at home during the day there is a constant stream of calls that are of no use to anybody.  If I want something I will go and get it.  I find them intrusive.  All I want to do is relax in my own home.   The telephone rings and when I go to get I am dissappointed to find it is someone asking for a person who does not live in the house anymore.  Most of the time when you speak to them they are rude to you.

It is about time someone stood up to these abhorrant companies that pester people in their own homes.  I am going to seek out his website and find out how I can stop these pesky people from calling me!

Wear it Pink - Friday October 26th

Hello Everyone,

It is Wear it Pink day on Friday 26th October.

Here are some ways you can raise funds for Breakthrough Breast Cancer:-

Look book:

A selection of top retailers, including M&S, Avon, ghd, Coast, Warehouse, my-wardrobe.com, Ciaté, adidas and many more, have launched a selection of exclusive pink products – all carrying a donation to Breakthrough Breast Cancer. Check out the look book, www.breakthrough.org.uk/lookbook

Other goodies are on BCAM shop: http://www.breakthroughshop.org.uk/

I will be organising a collection at work for Breakthrough.

So next week, think pink!

Tracey

October is Breast Cancer Awareness month

October is Breast Cancer awareness month.  I had a great opportunity to speak to my local paper on Wednesday about my experience with cancer.  I was over the moon with the article.  The great journalist Katie who came to my house to interview me, picked up on all the messages I wanted to send out to anyone who is going through it at the moment.  Thank you to Katie and the Swindon Advertiser.  If I can help someone who is going through it to see there is light at the end of the tunnel then I have done my job.

http://www.swindonadvertiser.co.uk/news/9964099.Cancer_survivor_has_a_message_of_hope/

I really enjoy doing media work for Breakthrough Breast Cancer and see it as a priviledge to be asked to support such a great Charity.  The steps they are making through research is amazing but will only keep going through charitable donations.

On a more random note.  I bought a onesie (adult baby grow) and I was very excited about it.  It is white with a sort of pink pattern going through it.  By the way, most Men are onesie hatters, so I have learnt!  Women on the other hand love them.  Any way,  I stupidly put it in with a white's wash, and turned all my whites pink!  So I am doing really well for wear it pink this month!  However, not sure my son will think the same when he has to wear his white/pink polo shirts for school, whoops!

Macmillan coffee morning

On Friday I arranged to hold the Macmillan coffee morning.  All it took was one email, to ask people to bake.  The response was phenomenal, we sold lots of cakes and raised about £450. 

I really enjoyed selling the cakes.  It was a time to step away from desks get a piece of cake and a coffee.  It was a real event and was truly humbling that people took the time to bake for Macmillan.  Of course I bought a few cakes, scoffed the lot and then started to feel a bit nauseas.

Macmillan is a fabulous charity and I was glad to be part of a great event.